Astounding that
Because of
Careless
Distractions
Evil learned to hate
From
Good, and
How fast
I
Jokingly pretended to
Kill love.
My narcissism
Openly
Praying
Quick
Radiant
Speeches
Then, among
Understand yet
Vicious
White
Xenophobes, I scream
You are not
Zeus.
One.
In second grade we raised a caterpillar into a butterfly. It came out of its cocoon and we marveled at its beauty until it shit in its cage and we all realized that beauty was like that moment fleeting and full of shit.
Two.
I had a friend Diamond all throughout elementary school. God, she was sweet but she was destined to become trailer trash and all the teachers knew it. They didnt bother with her knowing that she would just end up a teenage mother married to a white kid that thinks hes a rapper.
Three.
The butterfly
One.
I feel like I've
fallen down the
rabbit hole
and I'll end up
too big in a
world too small.
Two.
I'm not asking
you to believe what
I believe,
just accept
that I believe it
because truth is
o b j e c t i v e.
Force a belief
and you're forcing
a goddamned lie.
Three.
Alice is symbolic
for innocence,
but we forget that
she went down the hole
w i l l i n g l y.
Albatross - oppressive burden or hindrance.
One.
I told my teacher in fourth grade that I heard Jesus in the wind. She sent me to the school therapist and on the way I dropped my pass. I leant over to pick it up; unaware that faith had fallen out of my pocket and shattered on the ground.
I dont blame my teacher for her reaction in her place, though, I wouldnt have done the same. I still dont understand why people just accept their beliefs because their parents told them it was right. Dont they wonder? Dont you wonder?
[I get scared sometimes because I dont know if Im just one of the un
senescent - growing old.
One.
I realized I was older when I saw a garage door and didn't think of them as large mouths to larger monsters that swallowed cars and people whole. I got scared that I was losing myself and used words as a life raft to keep my head above adulthood. But it was futile and I knew it.
But I still tried.
Two.
I cried a lot in fifth grade. My teacher tried her best to console me but she never understood why. At that time all I could muster from my sobs was a pathetic, "I don't want to. I don't want to."
"What? You don't want to what?" she would ask.
[Mrs. Quig
Cynical Distrustful of human nature; sarcastic.
He told me that I was turning into a cynic. I stared at him for five minutes, letting him slowly realize that I wasnt in the mood to listen to him.
Im not taking it back, he snapped. He stomped his foot on the ground like an indignant brat. I just continued to stare until he walked away.
Later, he came up to me again in Physics. Cornered in my desk, he towered above me. Youve become a misanthropist, he whispered.
I stared at him still.
But this time he didnt budge.
Do you really want to know why? I said, getting up. I brush
These hands were in prayer in the realm of faith, pressed together so tightly that not even Enlightenment could enter. These hands built fences against Wonder and moats to keep from Revelation. They crucified Sense and worshipped Ignorance.
These hands thought that when they were closed like eyes and minds that they were somehow Holy; that by being closed they were simply trapping Innocence.
But instead, they were just ensnaring themselves.
These hands have learned that the only way to find Truth is to like eyes and minds open.
Astounding that
Because of
Careless
Distractions
Evil learned to hate
From
Good, and
How fast
I
Jokingly pretended to
Kill love.
My narcissism
Openly
Praying
Quick
Radiant
Speeches
Then, among
Understand yet
Vicious
White
Xenophobes, I scream
You are not
Zeus.
One.
In second grade we raised a caterpillar into a butterfly. It came out of its cocoon and we marveled at its beauty until it shit in its cage and we all realized that beauty was like that moment fleeting and full of shit.
Two.
I had a friend Diamond all throughout elementary school. God, she was sweet but she was destined to become trailer trash and all the teachers knew it. They didnt bother with her knowing that she would just end up a teenage mother married to a white kid that thinks hes a rapper.
Three.
The butterfly
One.
I feel like I've
fallen down the
rabbit hole
and I'll end up
too big in a
world too small.
Two.
I'm not asking
you to believe what
I believe,
just accept
that I believe it
because truth is
o b j e c t i v e.
Force a belief
and you're forcing
a goddamned lie.
Three.
Alice is symbolic
for innocence,
but we forget that
she went down the hole
w i l l i n g l y.
Albatross - oppressive burden or hindrance.
One.
I told my teacher in fourth grade that I heard Jesus in the wind. She sent me to the school therapist and on the way I dropped my pass. I leant over to pick it up; unaware that faith had fallen out of my pocket and shattered on the ground.
I dont blame my teacher for her reaction in her place, though, I wouldnt have done the same. I still dont understand why people just accept their beliefs because their parents told them it was right. Dont they wonder? Dont you wonder?
[I get scared sometimes because I dont know if Im just one of the un
senescent - growing old.
One.
I realized I was older when I saw a garage door and didn't think of them as large mouths to larger monsters that swallowed cars and people whole. I got scared that I was losing myself and used words as a life raft to keep my head above adulthood. But it was futile and I knew it.
But I still tried.
Two.
I cried a lot in fifth grade. My teacher tried her best to console me but she never understood why. At that time all I could muster from my sobs was a pathetic, "I don't want to. I don't want to."
"What? You don't want to what?" she would ask.
[Mrs. Quig
Cynical Distrustful of human nature; sarcastic.
He told me that I was turning into a cynic. I stared at him for five minutes, letting him slowly realize that I wasnt in the mood to listen to him.
Im not taking it back, he snapped. He stomped his foot on the ground like an indignant brat. I just continued to stare until he walked away.
Later, he came up to me again in Physics. Cornered in my desk, he towered above me. Youve become a misanthropist, he whispered.
I stared at him still.
But this time he didnt budge.
Do you really want to know why? I said, getting up. I brush
These hands were in prayer in the realm of faith, pressed together so tightly that not even Enlightenment could enter. These hands built fences against Wonder and moats to keep from Revelation. They crucified Sense and worshipped Ignorance.
These hands thought that when they were closed like eyes and minds that they were somehow Holy; that by being closed they were simply trapping Innocence.
But instead, they were just ensnaring themselves.
These hands have learned that the only way to find Truth is to like eyes and minds open.
She would break his heart
in ways he knew
he could grow to love -
how she spoke his name
like smoke,
drawing it out
in cool blue syllables
between her teeth,
her mouth talking that sweet trash
he coveted like new coin.
the red spike heels
he could feel crack his spine
and the slit of her eyes
stripping his muscles and tendons
down to tender shoots
crushed against her chest -
her bones on his,
the sound of being played.
definitely, maybe collab. by hush-lullaby, literature
Literature
definitely, maybe collab.
i. you are a mish-mash
of never-ending smiles and toxic beauty.
you're a tangle of scattered thoughts
and makeshift perfection; you make
the seven wonders of the world jealous.
"maybe someday arrows
will guide us through the milky way, and we'll use
the stars as stepping stones."
"maybe we'll play hopscotch in the sky,
surrounded by little fragments of dreams
that dancers forgot to remember."
ii. you're the displacement in a
chemical reaction; you're the magnesium,
and i'm mercury (only liquid at room
temperature,
too close to the sun for life to
exist,
and the messenger they loved to
shoot).
you are a butterfly's wings
I wait through a dreary morning;
waiting for your pressed hand
over my shoulder.
I don't expect you.
I wanted you to arrive;
for conversation and coffee.
I need to tell you how unhealthy I am,
how the only time I move is to go
to the bathroom.
I do not know how I refuse to shower.
It has become a custom, a culture,
a language, the art of resistance
since you've been absent.
I miss your errant smiles. The way
you hold a penny in your left hand
when you write with your right.
I'm exhausted from lying in bed.
The house seems unfamiliar.
Used to be alive;
feeling a sensation I can
no longer describe.
pulling the bra
from a fresh pack
of cancer sticks
bare assed and
on the wintered face
of a porcelain sanctity,
flame dancing wild
at the head of my cigarette
as it reduced to cherry
and I blew believable
smoke signals
to a human race
that couldn't possibly exist.
correcting my posture
only to realize
everything,
everyone is dead and
the art is hung
crooked.
( it looked as if christ and his disciples
w
All But Fragile Birds by silverwolfsoul777, literature
Literature
All But Fragile Birds
On fine golden chains
With numerous names
We fail from the fear of falling.
With Indian eyes and broken spines
We bleed just to know we still feel.
On splintered stilts we raise our self,
To crash into bland disappointment.
With self doubt we restrict ourselves,
And with bloody tears we accuse.
Bruises hold the evidence of lies and truths anew,
But with razor blades and fire flies we silently refuse.
On broken wings we try to fly when all along we're grounded.
Seeping from the hand of God we are silently reminded,
We are all but fragile birds with feathers made of glass,
And constantly reminded that this pain will always last.
I am ``````Alyssa. ``````in love. ``````16. ``````situated in New Hampshire. ``````a writer.
Current Residence: New Hampshire deviantWEAR sizing preference: Medium Print preference: White Lined Paper Favourite genre of music: Alternative and Rock Favourite style of art: Photography MP3 player of choice: My Ipod Nano Video Favourite cartoon character: Bubbles
Yeah, this is my first journal entry. Should be something cool but instead it's me saying that I've been wicked (new england term, meaning: very) busy lately and there's a lot of emotional rain drowning me. When things quiet, I'll probably write about it.
- Alyssa